Devo (1 Corinthians 2:11-12)

11 No one can know a person’s thoughts except that person’s own spirit, and no one can know God’s thoughts except God’s own Spirit. 12 And we have received God’s Spirit (not the world’s spirit), so we can know the wonderful things God has freely given us.

Seems intuitive for the most part. I think it might be slightly weird that a concept like this is just intuitive. I was thinking about the Holy Trinity recently and I’m not gonna lie, I have basically no idea what the Holy Spirit does or what it’s function is within the trinity.

The thing I really want to focus on is verse 12 where it states that once you’ve received God’s Spirit, we can know the wonderful things God has (freely) given us. If we can only know the wonderful things God has given us if we have the spirit, the inverse would be we don’t know the wonderful things God has given us if we don’t have the spirit.

Without the lens that is the Holy Spirit, we are unable to know what God has given us.

Something I’ve been trying to do recently is being content with where I am, and with what I have. I’m really ambitious in a lot of the things I do, and sometimes, it consumes me. As a result, sometimes I push myself really hard to be content. It’s funny if you think about it; I recognize my ambition and I recognize its aggressively out of control. So my solution is to aggressively be content haha.

It works about as well as aggressively trying to fall asleep.

So does this really help with my current problem? I don’t think so. Not directly at least. For me, this is more of a reminder. A refocusing of what I’ve been doing. Not just making a checklist of all the good things in my life, but seeing how God has worked in my life.



Update and Devo (psalm 7)

So to start, a small update. I haven’t forgotten about or given up on this blog. I’m currently writing another piece (though albeit slowly) and I’m really obsessing over it so that in itself is a journey lmao. In terms of content, I have ideas; I just have no idea how to execute them.

For now, I’d like to start sharing my devos. For those who don’t know what devos are, devos are short for devotions. Devotions (as I interpret them) are just daily meditations on the word [of God] (aka the bible). I’m not gonna post one every day but I think you can be assured there will be at least a few a week. In terms of what you can expect from my devos, sometimes I get some real good insight but often I don’t. It’s a journey so I hope you can join me on it. Feel free to email me or tweet out to me or something if you have something to say (idek if either of those things are listed anywhere on my blog. Ill make sure to get on that).

Before I share my devo, I’d like to talk a little bit about the process! I didn’t really do devos growing up so I didn’t really know how to do one. Everyone talked about how it was important to do them daily but no one ever explicitly explained how to do one. The way I’m currently doing them I just learned recently so I’m still trying to get the hang of it. So essentially, there’s three very simple questions you ask yourself on each read through of your passage:

  1. What stands out to me?
  2. What is God trying to tell me?
  3. What am I gonna do about it?

It’s straightforward and if you don’t get it, you’ll get the hang of it as I do devos or whatever. Anyways, I’m done explaining.


This is a good one to start with. I really like it because I can’t relate to it at all. First post and I have nothing to write about! Exciting, ya? Let’s talk about 7:3-5.

3 O Lord my God, if I have done wrong or am guilty of injustice,
4 If I have betrayed a friend or plundered my enemy without cause,
5 then let my enemies capture me. Let them trample me into the ground and drag my honor in the dust.

These verses are just so weird. Two verses ago, David is literally coming to God and asking for protection from his persecutors. Persecutors who he claims will maul him like a lion and tear him into pieces. That’s hella intense and yet here he is at verse 3 telling the same God that “but if i suck just let me get wrecked”. Like, ‘if I have done wrong’ is a pretty big spectrum of things and he’s saying if he falls in that spectrum, God can just let him be mauled and stuff. So why? Why would he say that?

If I were me, I’d think from the perspective of how God is definitely all or nothing. Like, if you’re completely into God, completely born again through Jesus and living your life for him, then you’re saved. But if you’re not all in, then there’s nothing. Sure, you say you’re a christian, and to you,  Jesus was a cool dude that said good things and told us to be good people. Maybe he’s even God! Even then, that’s nothing.

Nothing less than the utter surrender of your life to God counts for anything. Because anything less is a life that still retains our former selves, and we know our former selves are sinful, our former selves still do wrong. And as David puts it, “O Lord my God, if I have done wrong… Let them trample me into the ground and drag my honor in the dust.” There is no substitute.

So let us remind ourselves each day that we need to fully rely on God. Not just a little bit. I know I need the constant reminder. Being told growing up that I needed to be better at this, better at that, has grown me into a person that needs to control everything myself. Anything you’re not controlling is something that can fail. Giving up control to someone else requires trust and vulnerability, it’s not risk-free. But if we believe in a God that is perfect (which I do), everything that happens on his end will work out so we just need to let him do his thing.

Not bad for unrelatable.

If you have any comments, anything to say. Feel free to contact me! Questions relating to faith are fine. Criticism about my writing style are fine. Thank yous for making your day are great (my ego can always get bigger).



Small Thoughts

I like to think I think a lot. Not that I think that I think about anything insightful or important most of the time. I just think that my thoughts are constantly flowing all the time. Common places of thinking include conversations, lecture halls, and the church sanctuaries (no one tell my elders). Essentially any place or thing that really requires my attention.

About a year ago, I had a brilliant idea where I’d bring a notebook with me everywhere and begin recording my thoughts down. The thing about my stream of thoughts is that it frequently repeated itself so I found myself thinking about the same things a lot. Writing down my thoughts consolidated them into one place and my thoughts began to build off of my written material. My small thoughts started becoming a bigger thing.

Now, I’d want nothing more than to say that this past year was a year of breakthroughs and insight. Unfortunately, I have more half things and thoughts in progress than ever before, and answers to just about nothing. But what I’d like to do is share these thoughts with others and hopefully we can find the truth together. Or whatever it is we’re each individually looking for. And I think that’s what’s really important, the fact that we’re all here putting in the work and trying to find answers.